As I said above, Hi! My name is Matt and I’d like to meet the REAL you. I want to meet the you that God looks down and see’s everyday. I want to meet the you that Jesus (who lives inside of you) has to see every waking moment. How come we’ve forgotten that we live to please God and not man? How come we always hear sermons or read scriptures and always think of someone else that needs to hear that word but we never think that maybe we have something we need to change? What’s those secrets deep down inside of you that you don’t want anyone to know? Let me be honest:

When I write blogs, I often like to take my time and make sure every thing sounds good and interesting and I try to make sure I have a good literature-teacher-approved-title that sparks interest in you, the reader. I probably proof read it at least 8 times over a period of 2-5 days and I make sure I get up and do something and come back to read it to make sure I’m focused and not writing crazy things. I also try to never post it until I’ve read it once in the morning after the day I wrote it, so that I can read it with a fully rested, fresh new mind.

Honestly, I care about what you think of me. It’s not even in the good way, there is a good and bad way to care of what you think about me, but this is the bad way. I want you to like me. I want you to think I’m the perfect son, friend, boyfriend, brother and Christian. I want you to think of me as a good Christian man of God.

I’ve even become really good at lying to myself and tricking myself into believing that I’m really not a people pleaser. That’s helped me get really good at thinking I’m perfect and theirs nothing wrong with me. I have this hidden talent where I can trick myself into thinking whatever my flesh wants me to think. I like to think of it as a God-given gift.

I think I’m some big shot. I think that I’m better then you and I’ve probably judged you and something you did once or twice before. The truth is I’m human, I make lots of mistakes and screw up a lot.

People have this idea of me that I’m some “Holier Than Thou” person who never messes up and has it all together all the time and knows exactly where he’s going in life and how to get there.

I’m sorry to be the one to have to tell you this but I’m not. I am a screw up. I am a nobody. I am a person of no importance or influence and I am very insignificant. I am a stupid, inept, foolish person. In fact, I’m a lot like you.

You have to understand, I forgot about God.. For so long I wanted to be the good christian boy who everyone loved. and for so long that’s what I’ve been! I am the great guy who everybody likes, has a good reputation and who every mom wants to marry their daughter. That’s me! That’s what I wanted and that’s what I got.

And I say that not conceited or proud but ashamed. I want you to like me, and odds are you do. Now what?! How does that help me in life?! How stupid have I been?!

I’ve discovered something recently that has changed my day to day habits, thought process, actions and decisions, and that’s this: I was a nobody and a loser until I became called by God.

God’s been changing something inside of me and dealing with me and breaking me and showing me how little I really am for the past few weeks, but recently it’s just all clicked. And I can honestly say, I couldn’t care less what you think about me.

Here’s why: I know exactly who I am in Christ and I understand why I was created and what my purpose and calling in life is. I have my head on my shoulders and I haven’t put my confidence in man, but in God. God has anointed me to preach his word and he has a call on my life and I am going to say or type whatever he wants me to and I am more then happy to inform you that I really don’t care what you think about that.

1 Thessalonians 2:4 “We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts.”

Colossians 3:17 “And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.”

2 Corinthians 5:9 it says, “So we make it our goal to please Him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it.”

Ephesians 6:5-9 “Slaves, obey your earthly masters with fear and trembling, with a sincere heart, as you would Christ, not by the way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but as servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart, rendering service with a good will as to the Lord and not to man, knowing that whatever good anyone does, this he will receive back from the Lord, whether he is a slave or free. Masters, do the same to them, and stop your threatening, knowing that he who is both their Master and yours is in heaven, and that there is no partiality with him.”

Colossians 3:22 “Slaves, obey in everything those who are your earthly masters, not by way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but with sincerity of heart, fearing the Lord.”

Galatians 2:20 “I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

Wow! When did life become about us?! I feel so guilty reading those verses…Where in those verses did you see where it is okay to live to impress people? Don’t you see that we live to please God?! We have to remember that God created us and God has sent his son to die on a cross for us and we can’t take advantage of it. We can’t live for ourselves and to impress other people. We need Christ! We need Jesus to survive! We keep trying to do things on our own and keep failing time after time. When is enough, enough?! When are you going to stop pretending and putting up such a fake face and become everything that God has created you to be?!

See, for some of us. That other person that we keep trying to please is yourself! You keep trying to worship and live for yourself and you have forgotten your whole purpose in life and why you were created to live! You think life is about you, but I have news for you…It’s not all about you!

How come we think we are “holier than thou?!” What gives us the right to live?! How have we become so selfish?! How do we live in America, have warm houses and beds to sleep in every night and always have food on the table and forget to thank God?! How do we sit by our fireplace and know theirs homeless people freezing their butts off and not do anything about it?! What has happened to us?! Why do we think were something special?! Do you not know that everything you have is from God?!

Men, when are you going to start being a MAN of God and stop masturbating and looking at pornography every day?! When are you going to draw the line and say, “I can’t do this anymore.” When are you going to stop being ignorant and self centered and when are you going to start loving your girlfriend or wife the way she needs to be loved and start pursuing them like you used to?! When are you going to start setting an example for your siblings or children and follow after God instead of being an idiot and fooling around in stuff you shouldn’t be?! When are you going to take the step you need to to protect your family and be a man and do hard things?! When are you going to start growing up and listening to people talk instead of thinking you are the only one with something good to say?! When are you going to realize life isn’t all about money?! When are you going to step up and be the Man your girl needs you to be?! Stop thinking you don’t mess up and you don’t make mistakes, you are a loser and need God to function properly. Stop thinking, “Oh, real men don’t lift their hands when they worship God” and “Real man don’t cry or show emotion.” Are you freaking kidding me?! Stop being a little girl and grow up! If you’re ready to be the MAN of God that you are called to be ask God to teach you how! Ask him and I know (because it’s in his word) that he will answer you.

Ladies, when are you going to stop putting inappropriate pictures of yourself on facebook?! When are you going to stop using your body and looks to get what you want in life and start using your God given ability of speech instead of flaunting yourself to get what you think you need to be happy?! When are you going to start respecting your boyfriend or husband the way he needs to be respected?! When are you going to stop flirting with every single guy you see WHILE you are in a relationship with someone and put fourth an effort to improve your relationship with the guy YOU chose to be with?! When will you draw the line and stop gossiping about that one girl with all your friends who shouldn’t even be your friends in the first place?!! When will you stop comparing yourself to all the disgusting looking photoshoped girls in the retarded magazines that you read?! When will you dress with modesty and act with decency and be the woman and supporter your man needs you to be?! When will you stop thinking you NEED a man to be happy and start fully relying on God?!

How come YOU the “Good little Christian” boy or girl, how come YOU are the one dealing with probably half the stuff I just said?! YOU! You are the church of the Almighty, living God! How come there isn’t anything that separates the Christian from the world?! How sad and heart breaking is it?! I’m in tears thinking about how stupid we’ve become as Christians…when is enough going to be enough?!

If you feel guilty and offended by anything that I said, I really encourage you to ask God to reveal to you what you need to change and how to do it (I know I am). I also encourage you to get help. Find some mentors (and by mentor I don’t mean someone who is a few years older then you who is dealing with the same thing you’re dealing with and can make you feel better about yourself because you know your not the only one with the problem) and surround yourself with people who will help you.

Stop living this life your living now. Stop thinking your perfect! Stop going to the alter every single week for the SAME thing! Grow up and figure out what you need to change and change it! Don’t over religiousize it! Become everything God has created you to be and live your life as a STRONG (not sissy) example!